Physically Exhausting Day

Today was a very physically exhausting day.  Mike had several periods of extreme anxiety/agitation. Just trying to keep him from grabbing food, me, or hurting himself due to his franticness, gave me a real workout.  At one point, I thought I was just going to have to call 911 he was so wild-eyed and out-of-control.  I was able to push/walk with him, which is the best thing I've found, to try to counteract this behavior. However, that wasn't working too well today, and at one point I told him he needed to pray for Jesus to take away that evil spirit of anxiety because it was killing him and me. I started praying for the Lord to release Mike from this anxiety in the name and by the blood of Jesus. Mike was repeating what I said. He never did really calm down on the walk, but did get to the point where I didn't have to push/direct him anymore.  I did give him the Trazadone at about 12 or so and although it took a while, we were able to play a couple of games of Sequence AND he talked on the phone with his Mom and his Dad. After lunch, he was wound up again, but I finally was able to get him to rest on the couch. It was after lunch that the worst episode (above) occurred. I just don't understand why he was so out of it most of the day.  There was no obvious trigger. Chalk it up to the mysteries of TBI.

The beginning of the week went so well.  Monday and Tuesday he was so clear headed, helpful, able to work, kind.  Today has brought more questions for Dr. Silver. It seems with more clarity comes more frustration. Maybe he is more aware of his real situation and when he realizes his limitations, it brings about the anxiety which causes these out-of-control behaviors. Please pray for peace and healing for him (mentally, spiritually, physically, and emotionally), plus more awareness of his actions and their affect on those around him. Pray that I stay calm and not escalate the behavior by getting out-of-control myself, plus that I'll have patience, love, strength and wisdom.

From Revealing Jesus with Darlene Zschech a Bible reading plan from the YouVersion Bible app. :  "God is not cruel and does not bring temptation and trials into our lives. That is the result of our enemy and the fallen nature of the world in which we live, a world which God so loved that He sent His best (Jesus) for.  When God allows trials and tribulations--even persecution--in your life, know that His love and faithfulness is just as real and present. Focus on Jesus and the finished work of the cross, for His grace is sufficient for your every need." Today was very hard, but Jesus is still in control and He is everything to me even if I don't understand why we have to go through this. I hope He is your everything also.