Today I'm going to start with the bright spot of the day. About 2pm, we drove to Jordan Lake and enjoyed the peace and quiet and sunshine. We walked a little and then sat on a bench just soaking in the gentle lapping of the water on the sandy beach, feeling the sun on our faces (and my feet) and imagining we were in Palau. Mike took off his jacket to feel the sun on his arms, but I thought it was a bit too breezy and chilly for that. (except my feet!)
I wish I could forget the rest of the day. Some day when we are on the other side of this adventure, I may write a book which includes more detail, but now is not the time.From start to finish here's a short summary:
1. I have a spray bottle in the bathroom with a mix of clorox and water always handy and very necessary this morning. (Use your imagination, you might figure it out.)
2. There is a nurse at LabCorp who I'm sure will never forget us.
3. Mike has 3 needle pricks and a red chest. He is SO strong.
4. Rod and I had quite a restraining workout this morning, I have a headache & my wrists are sore. (Am so glad I asked Rod to come with us today at the last moment yesterday - Thank you Holy Spirit for that prompt!)
5. Leave Rod and Mike in the car, run into the Pharmacy, come out....no Mike and Rod???
6. Mike stuffing food in his mouth. I really dislike carpet under the dining table.
7. Oh! Another bright spot...we got a urine sample! Back to LabCorp. Now we wait for results.
8. On our way to Jordan Lake, am so glad I can hold down the car door lock and he can't open the door.
9. Those trying-not-to-stare stares at Kroger, Mom's whispering to and hushing their children
10. Leave your seatbelt on! (deja vu?) No, I'm not removing my hand, it's the law! Ouch! We need to cut your fingernails.
11. sore wrists, red chest, more clorox, another shower
12. laundry, always laundry
13. Dr. Schwarz is checking with insurance to get the wound vac back. Heavy sigh...
14. After forcing him into bed, he collapses and falls instantly to sleep. ahhhh
It's been a tough day and I really hope there is a light at the end of the tunnel, but it is hard to see it on days like this. Today I was asking God "how long?" and thinking I really cannot wait to be with family and on the farm. I just hope we don't make everybody crazy. I'm ok, just very tired of the struggle and not knowing what the problem really is. No one seems to know. I am happier with my reactions today in the midst of all the stress. Thank you, Holy Spirit, for reminding me to be compassionate.
Praying for you and Mike tonight Jennifer. Thank you for sharing the hard times as well as the good.
ReplyDeleteEspecially praying that God will provide healing for Mike and respite for you.
And I think a book is a very good idea.
love,
Amy
Thank you, Amy, you are precious and I really appreciate your thoughts, prayers and posts.
DeleteLove the quote from the book, "Primal" even though it hit me right between the eyes. It's so true that it's easy to "act" Christian, but our reactions are so important as well. Thanks for that reminder.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry to hear things were hard yesterday. I'm hoping and praying that they're better today and in the days to come.
Thank you, Margaret. (still wondering which Margaret you are) :-) I appreciate your prayers and glad the quote was helpful to you also. I need the daily and moment by moment reminders - what a blessing that Jesus sent His Holy Spirit to do just that, if we will only be quiet and listen or as a friend just reminded: "yes, to react like Jesus is the hardest thing to learn. Maybe we don't learn it, maybe it is something we have to let Him do in and through us because we simply can't." How true!! I needed that reminder too!
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